Should I be scared?

[MW1221]

I'm currently in high school. In eighth grade, one of our writing assignments was to write about the hardest thing we had to do.
I wrote about asking a girl out. Well, recently I decided that she should find out/read it. Due to this momentary lapse in judgement, I put the 4 page essay in an envelope along with a note that said the following:

[Her Name]~

Please don’t share the content of this envelope with any of your friends (for my sake). And please finish this note before going on to the stuff behind it.


This is one of the hardest things I ever had to do (it’s actually the second). It’s an abyss, of sorts, in my “hero’s journey”. Do you remember those papers? I do. We presented them the day I got back from my 3 day external suspension. That’s another story, which I’d be happy to tell you if you want to hear it. Anyway, back to the presentations. Were you paying attention to mine? It’s okay, nobody was. I know because when it came time for me to tell the class what my 4 page Abyss Paper was about, I just turned the pages in the binder and said “Abyss Paper” repeatedly. Nobody noticed. Several people noticed my autograph collection, though. Well, anyway, the reason I didn’t tell what my abyss paper was about was because I was scared of what people (esp. you and your friends) would think, say, and/or do to me. I’m still scared of them, but I thought that you might enjoy it. I stapled to the back of this note. I’m very interested on hearing your thoughts about it. Just keep in mind that I wrote the paper for an assignment about the greatest challenge ever faced, and telling you about it is a close second.

-[My Name]


PS I’m dancing and lip-syncing on YouTube. If you want a laugh or this paper makes you want to see me humiliate myself, I’m making a complete idiot of myself on YouTube.

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I wrote her name on the envelope and dropped it in front of her as I was passing. Her friends all saw me do it. Should I be afraid to go near them again?

[TheCollector]

Hi MW1221

Very brave of you

My guess is that if she hasn't confronted you about it, then things are probably OK She may well be just as embarrassed as you, which is why she is keeping quiet at the moment.

My second guess is that she will be secretly flattered.

Perhaps one of those choices (at the moment) you wish you never carried through, but maybe you can look back on in the future and be glad you did. I would say "Hi" when you next see her, and judge her reaction from there.

Best of luck!
Ian

[MW1221]

Thank you.

She didn't want to kill me. The story of what happened is below.

I'm disappointed about how things went. She didn't kill me, which is good. But I didn't do what I originally wanted. I gave her that paper to hear her thoughts on it. I dropped the ball, big time.

I went into the library after school today. The librarian gave me a box to deliver to the main office, which I agreed to do. When I got to the cafeteria, I saw the girl [name witheld] sitting at the usual table for her group. Only her group wasn’t there, it was just her and her boyfriend. So, I walked up to their table. When I was standing next to her, I said “[her name]”. She turned and looked at me. I was looking into the same face I was looking into in April. It was wearing the exact same expression, and it was just as sweet and beautiful.

Okay, before I start rambling about how beautiful [her name witheld] is, I’m going to finish my story. Well, after getting her attention, I asked her, “Did you read that thing yet?” She said, “Yes”. Then there was a pause, which lasted about two seconds. That’s were things started going downhill. She was the one that ended the pause with an awkward “Thank you” which she quickly followed up with “I don’t know what to say about that” and then she laughed. Not at me, but with me. She has the most beautiful laugh. Okay, I’m going to start rambling again.

Well after that I said, “Ok” and walked away. When I got back from the office, the table was filled with her friends.

[MW1221]

A new update.


Her best friend now hates me. I think that I accidentally insulted her via MySpace email.

This isn't going great for me. This year's was one of my worst birthdays ever.

The only thing that could make this worse is if they took up autograph collecting and read the comments on this forum. With the way my luck's been, it wouldn't surprise me.

[MW1221]

A new update for those keeping track.

She just messaged me back, and said

its alright what did u need to say

Does that sound kind of cold or like she was angry upon writing it?

[MW1221]

A new update.

I sent her the secret. Then she read it and blocked me.

I just ruined my entire high school career. I can't face these people again.

[MW1221]

A new update (if anyone cares)

I just got a friend to send her a MySpace message containing my apology (since she blocked my messages).


I'll keep you all updated on my life.

[MW1221]

This a great weekend for updates.

I shall now give you an update on this situation, which has been going on since Friday.

My friend messaged her asking if she would accept my apology.

Her response:

ya sure

I'll continue to keep you udated as developements occur.

[celebrityfan]

Hey,

It just sounds like another teenage dilemma, you'll get over it...millions and millions of people have been in the same situation as you sometime in their life and it feels like sometimes you want to crawl up and die...but don't let it get to you like that.

I'm going to post the lyrics to a Brad Paisley song called 'Letter to Me', and it's about if he could write a letter to himself when he was 17 and give him advice and tell him that its not the end of the world! I'll highlight some key text which you can relate to.

If I could write a letter to me
and send it back in time to myself at seventeen
first I'd prove it's me by sayin'
look under your bed, there's a Skoal can and a Playboy
no one else would know you hid
and then I'd say I know it's tough
when you break up after 7 months
and yeah I know you really liked her
and it just don't seem fair
but all I can say is pain like that is fast and it's rare

and oh you got so much goin' for you
goin' right
but I know at 17
it's hard to see past Friday night
she wasn't right for you
and still you feel like there's
a knife stickin' out of your back
and you're wonderin' if you'll survive
but you'll make it through this and you'll see
you're still around to write this letter to me

at the stop sign at Tomlinson and 8th
always stop completely, don't just tap your brakes
and when you get a date with Bridgette
make sure the tank is full
on second thought forget it, that one turns out kinda cool.
each and every time you have a fight
just assume you're wrong and daddy's right.
and you should really thank Miss Brinkman
she spent so much extra time
It's like she sees the diamond underneath
and she's polishin' you 'til you shine.

and oh you got so much goin' for you
goin' right
but I know at 17
it's hard to see past Friday night
tonight's the bonfire rally
but you're staying home instead
because if you fail algebra
mom and dad'll kill you dead
trust me you'll squeak by and get a C
and you're still around to write this letter to me

you got so much up ahead
you'll make new friends
you should see your kids and wife
and I'd end by sayin' have no fear
these are nowhere near
the best years of your life

I guess I'll see you in the mirror
when you're a grown man
p.s. go hug aunt Rita every chance you can

and oh you got so much goin' for you
goin' right
but I know at 17
it's hard to see past Friday night
I wish you'd study Spanish
I wish you'd take a typing class
I wish you wouldn't worry let it be
I'd say have a little faith and you'll see

if I could write a letter to me...

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Hope this helps!

[MW1221]

I don't know if anyone out there cares, but I have a new update.

Out of nowhere my friend, the same one that sent that message for me, just said that he would call the girl I gave the paper to, get her thoughts on it, and try to convince her to go out with me.

I'll keep you posted.